Today is Friday March 2, 2012. Your birthday is in just a few days and today I would have loved to take you to the family day at Wi Spa in Los Angeles. Kids are only $5 on Fridays and there are plenty of other children that you could play with in the kids play room. It is really a wonderful environment that is peaceful and calm. I want to show you this calm behavior and the ways that parents and children can play together in a non-violent way.
Sometimes there is a problem when children are playing and I have seen other parents including mothers and fathers leave their kids unattended. I would not do this to you, I would be with you the entire time, and I would not allow you to go in the hot saunas at your age. I would introduce you to some new friends and I would love to show you some of the wonderful parts of the Korean culture.
“Kids who exhibited violent behavior at school were 11 times as likely not to live with their fathers and six times as likely to have parents who were not married.” ~Source: American Journal of Public Health, No. 84.
I am sad that your mother is still hiding you from me and will now allow you to be with me. It is simply not right that she is playing games with your life, allowing others to see you who I specifically have said I do not want around you, and at the same time causing you and me harm, stress, and additional trauma. Even though I am sure many people are telling her that her marriage will never work and she should get divorced as soon as possible, I believe she needs to think for herself and do what is right for her, you, and me. I would guess many people are saying that I am “toxic” or that our relationship is “toxic” but this is just another way of placing blame on someone else. Really, there are many great things that your mother and I were able to do together before and after you were born and I hope that one day we are able to work though this so you can be with both of your loving parents. She will not talk to me though and after many months of trying to work with her I am continuing to move on. I did not file for divorce.
Yesterday I was talking to a lady in Marina del Rey at a Mexican food location about your problems and health. She remembered me from over 10 years ago and is also very sad to hear about what has happened to you. She also hopes that one day you will be back with your father and no subjected to this abuse by your mother, some of her friends, and a few people in her family.
Instead of being able to take you to:
2700 Wilshire Blvd
Los Angeles, CA
I have been working with agencies today, I have been resting, visiting with friends, and will be going for a bike ride soon. I have been eating well and enjoying life as much as I can with out you. You need me to be with you every day for your own health and I am sad that your mother is not allowing this very basic need to be met. Some day you will see one way or another what a real family can do to help each other in times of need. You will one day see what it is like to not have manipulation and deception around you where people ambush each other or spend your money on lawyers, new unnecessary technology, or unhealthy living situations. There is a better life for you out there and I am excited to show it to you.
I love you, I want to be with you each day, and there is nothing you can do to make me love you any less.
Your left behind father,