Myla Hillman,
I want you to know that you are going through many developmental problems right now because your mother is alienating you from me, your real father. I know it is not your fault or my fault that you are being alienated but I could have chosen someone who would have made sure that your health came first before having you in a much better way. I wish you were able to live a healthy life with both of your biological parents as many other children are right now. Every second that you are away is another second you will never get back with your father. You mother’s friends like Laurie and Jose have had to take their kids in for many medical problems like this because of their abuse and their inability to take care of their kids in a healthy way and I pray you are not spending any of your time with them or the others that have helped to abduct and alienate you from me. I remember how my father Larry Hillman would care for me in times when I needed his help. My mother would start to panic but my father would know exactly what to do. He was educated, he did not leave his kids behind in other states, and he spent time with us in a healthy way. He helped to keep me alive when I made many mistakes growing up. I want to be there for you each day so that I can help to keep you healthy and alive. I read that over 20% of abducted children die during their abduction from the national center and I pray that you are still alive today. I hope it does not take years of this before the courts decide that you need to be with your father full time. I know many other children have had to wait 4 years or more to spend this amount of time with their fathers but I will keep fighting for you to be able to do this. I also want you to have biological siblings to grow up with like I had. It is wonderful to have other family in your life that is your age even if they fight with you sometimes and make life more difficult. The ladies that I have been dating since your mother has broken our intact family apart have wanted to have children with me but I know it is best to wait until we are married and then wait even more time before having children. I also know one father that has a 25 year old daughter from his first wife who divorced him just after the child was born but now has a brand new 4 year old baby boy with a new loving wife that he is happily married to now. He says both of his children get along very well and are able to relate to each other even though there is a 20 year difference.
“Children who live apart from their fathers experience more accidents and a higher rate of chronic asthma, headaches, and speech defects.”
Harknett, Kristin. Children’s Elevated Risk of Asthma in Unmarried Families: Underlying Structural and Behavioral Mechanisms. Working Paper #2005-01-FF. Princeton, NJ: Center for Research on Child Well-being,
Right now I am in an environment with high quality air cleaners, I speak with many different people each day, and the children are able to communicate with each other and develop their speech together. There is no smoking where I am at, there is no dust because it is cleaned each day by a staff, and there are many open parks that I would love to take you to today so that you could experience the world around us. I would have also enjoyed taking you to a service this evening in Santa Monica but it seems I will either need to go by myself, with a friend, or with a date.
Every day I want to know where you are, every day I want to be with you, every day I want you to be able to enjoy and benefit from your real father, and every day I wish your child alienation would be wiped away and healed. Today I am going to get a “work out” in and enjoy my time fighting for your ability to spend your needed time with me. I love you, I will get you back if you are still alive, and I did not run off with another woman. I waited for your mother when she messaged that she had found a better father for you. If I were to show up at your mother’s work or home address it could cause an unsafe situation if your mother’s new boyfriend or the people at the salon who have threatened me are there. Maybe soon I will need to come there with the LAPD just to “keep the peace” so that I can confirm that you are safe and alive even though this could also create an unhealthy and unsafe environment.
I know that your mother’s lawyer that she hired is feeding her with reasons to pay him more money. I know he is fueling her fire because I have watched him tell her to “shut up” in court when she tries to say something and can not even spell her name correctly. He also can not spell your name correctly and does not have any concern for your health. Her lawyer also does everything possible to keep you from spending long term quality time with your safe, caring, and loving father. He only has concern for his pocket book and will continue to keep your mother filing more and more paperwork with divorce, custody, support and other things, costing her all the money that could have been spent on you, your education, your health, and you activities. People like this give his profession such a horrible disturbing name.
I also want you to know that it is not healthy for you to watch your mother date other men. I do not want you to see your mother get married again and again. When people get married they make a promise for life to their family, friends, and the church. People should not get married for money, paperwork, or so they can stay in a country. They should get married because they plan to spend the rest of their life with their partner even when there is abuse, even when people cheat, and even if the other person does not meet their needs. I did not cheat on your mother although I am trying to express my love now since it has been taken from me, I did not abuse her even though we did have arguments, I did not abuse you although you are being abused right now, and I did everything I could to meet her needs even though I did not. Everyone has the legal “right” to leave a relationship but when you get married you promise to stick it out, not just when things are going great and you are happy, but also when you are unhappy, things seem impossible, and you feel hurt. This is when things turn around, things get better, and people change. Just because your mother is trying to break her promise does not mean that you need to in the future. I do not want these other men in your life when you need to have your real man in your life, “ME!” I do not want you to stay the night at other homes where there are other men present like you have when you were bounced around LA to places with “Brian”, “Jose”, and many others. I only want you to be around me, your father every day and I would like you to watch your father communicate and work out problems with your real mother so you know it is possible to do the same.
I love you, I will always love you, and there is nothing you can do to ever make me love you any less.
Your left behind father,
Gregory Hillman
